What is, is what is. You can’t change it. It already is what is. Change, however, is always happening, so change, it will. We never know what will appear in the next breath, or if we’ll be given a next breath. It’s impossible to know. It hasn’t happened yet. There are too many variables, so many things in play, that just trying consumes every bit of energy, eating up the lifeforce like Pacman gobbling up dots bite by bite.
The next appearance on the stage of life doesn’t have to look like the current one and most likely won’t. In fact, it’s pretty much guaranteed not to. We humans tend to see what is here now, taking it as THE reality, not realizing that it is only this moment’s stage show.
When it is unwanted, we resist, fearing it will stay around or at the least, dismally color what’s next. When it is pleasing, we grab on, fearing it will slip away, that we will lose what we want, that we won’t have what we need.
Regardless of whether the current appearance is pleasing or not, it will slip away. Everything does. Life is not one unending note, forever played. It is change, an ever-alive symphony, always new, always fresh. Our notes in the song are always new and different. What’s here today will be gone tomorrow. There is no need to resist or to attempt to hang on. Every expression ends. Nothing hangs around.
Generally, we don’t notice the changes, the subtle nuances, the warning cracks and fissures. We see what was, right up to the moment the magma flows and the red streaks and grey explosions appear. We tend to miss the tiny shifts that add up to a life, thinking nothing substantial is changing, until we look in the mirror and wonder how that happened.
To remain open and present to the intricacies, to actually feel life, to live it breath by breath, alive and in wonder, deeply genuinely truly realizing that life doesn’t have to be any certain way, slips a layer of conditioning off the informing design, allowing the basic hearticles of life to simply form as they will, as love wills, with less of the push pull of what has come before.
Of course, attempting to remain open when you really aren’t, when you want to close down, when you feel the need to grasp or to push away, isn’t a genuine response, and life is excellent at discerning what is real, at grokking where we currently resonate, and never fails to fine tune our vibrating strings in tune with what is real.
How does life know? Oh, that’s easy. It is us. It can’t be fooled. It’s not something separate, someone looking at us from a distance. We are this that knows, this that informs the next breath with our resistance, our desire, or our simple embrace – our love – of what is arising. We are the cello, the cellist, the strings and the bow, and the music that emanates from all the instruments and fills the universe.
Love this: “We are the cello, the cellist, the strings and the bow. . .”
Seems we live in mutual admiration. Thanks dear lady.
Good morning, Amaya…and Happy Birthday! At least that’s what my calendar says.
So I took this opportunity dropped at my feet-of-the-moment to read your email and actually respond with a greeting.
May this day and all your days continue to bring fresh insight, nudging you/us ever onward to what is beyond what we have known.
An update from where I sit, apparently: Glenn and I moved May 1 to Pocatello at Sarah’s urging to be with her, husband Alan and 9 yr old daughter Ella. It’s been a wonderful, clear decision and we’re thrilled with our time together as well as our new/old (built in 1930) home in the university neighborhood.
Plunked down in the midst of newness, somehow mixed w the familiar. The ultimate invitation to drop lingering identities to welcome what is now. I am looking forward to the day when my day’s reality isn’t stuffed w thoughts of where to put that just-unboxed item, as fun as it has been to bring our energy and things to our home. Soon, I think: more exercise w qigong, water aerobics and walking and more time in a more spacious, contemplative way. Life continues to unfold for me and us in a very gracious way, for which I am so grateful.
We’re headed tomorrow for camping and peace dancing w old friends in Salmon ID after what I hope is a smooth oral surgery today. Would you like to connect by phone or zoom sometime next week? I’d love to look into those beautiful eyes of yours and hear your voice. If so, pls share some options. Love, love. Enjoy your day. Kaia bandhu