Free Will

It’s been a fascinating last 16 months. Each health set back has taken me deeper and deeper into surrender. The last three months have been amazingly intense and nearly beyond words, but you know me, I’ll still make a valiant attempt What have I learned? Surrender is nothing I do; an ‘I’ can’t do it. …

No Escaping This!

Years ago a teacher said that many would not make the shift. That sounded too much like Christian rapture theology to me so I closed my ears. Surely no one would be left behind. How could a loving God leave any of Itself behind? Wouldn’t that be impossible? Years later I was given the vision …

In The World, Not Of It

To be in the world but not of it. My kingdom is not of this world. What are these actually saying to us? These words have been playing in my awareness for the last week or a bit longer and last night as I thought about the election it dawned on me that perhaps this …

Love’s Legacy

I found myself in resistance. Occasionally I still reside there for a moment or two, an hour or more … or longer? I’m not really sure anymore. Funny. It doesn’t appear to be mental, simply a perfect storm of life coalescing into an out of control physical experience. Shocks pepper my body — hand, head, …

You are the Portal

Jackson County is on alert to evacuate. Medford is a town of 82,000 and there are lots of smaller surrounding towns as well. My heart goes out to all my friends and family in the path of the Glendover fire. It is the same not too far from home. Clackamas County is on alert — …

Here, Here!

Just when you think it’s safe to get back in the water! What a life this is, a universe intent on stripping away every last flake of ego, ego that can not be seen until it is in the process of being stripped and even then it’s so slippery, like a slinky slipping around a …

Remember

We are conflicted beings, part heart and a lot of mind that is easily twisted. We are a work in progress that is without end. It seems we are human or becoming more so. Human meaning of humanity, kindness and compassion. We are not attending college but a kindergarten, a playground for consciousness to awaken …

The Sweet Spot

At the center of the cross lies the Sweet Spot, the intersection of our messy humanness and our Divine Nature. It is alive, teeming with sacred potential in a constant state of fulfillment-ing. It is the portal of eternal genesis, the fountain birthing and re-birthing each form, from quark to Universe, into timeless crystalline existence. …

Darth Vader, A True Love Story

Qui-Gon believed Anikan was the chosen one. When Qui-Gon died, Obi-Wan took over Anikan’s training as a Jedi, believing as his master Qui-Gon did, that Anikan was the great hope. Yoda was never quite certain. He always had questions about Anikan. He sensed the boy’s confusion, his fear, his clinging to desire, his ego. Throughout …

Living as Vulnerability

In the moments before awakening this morning, I heard a deep voice speak. The words, “Saffy will begin her spiral and leave soon.” Was it just my mind speaking its attachment to the beautiful, furry black compassion and companionship she so embodies? Or, was it the voice of prophecy? Was the day nearing when I …

Greatest Miracle of All

How do I begin to write about what happened today? The magic and mystery of my wooded walk took me deeper into its bosom. I walked with a friend. We were chatting, not having a particularly deep conversation, but aware and observant. As we walked over the small rise, I noticed the energy of a …

Intensity

I used to call life in a 3D body density. Now I know it to be Intensity. Want to be fully here? Want to live as Christ? Feel the Intensity, the Whole of You. Feel the Creative Life Force intensified into the pinpoint of life that is your unique expression of This. Until we feel …

Home Tree

“Mother, I am filled with your emptiness. You, oh fertile womb of all creation, Madonna, immaculate receptacle, have emptied this vessel. You have prepared this I am to receive the perfection of the Master’s sword. I, no longer am I. I am a waterfall of energy pouring into the world. I am the Eternal Genesis.” …

Immersion in God

How many ways are there to prevent absolute, ultimate immersion into God? Oh my God—evidently there are infinite, immeasurable, unfathomable ways. Sometimes I really wish these human forms came with an owner’s manual, realizing, of course, that the Owner is God. My most recent discovery—death is a deceitful distraction. It makes you believe in it …

What is Home if it is not Here?

What happened today? I knew that I was struggling with physical manifestations, deep in the experience of the lack of control I had over my own body. The digestive re-patterning, as my friend Paula called it, a severe understatement. The re-occurrence of the little sores I have battled since the late years of Ken’s illness …