Darth Vader, A True Love Story

Qui-Gon believed Anikan was the chosen one. When Qui-Gon died, Obi-Wan took over Anikan’s training as a Jedi, believing as his master Qui-Gon did, that Anikan was the great hope. Yoda was never quite certain. He always had questions about Anikan. He sensed the boy’s confusion, his fear, his clinging to desire, his ego. Throughout …

Namaste

I raised my two hands in front of my heart in Namaste, just like I have hundreds of times before. The impression of my fingers snugged up together—prayer hands—altered something within me, something that only moments before had been constrained by ordinary awareness wrapped in concepts of duality, of two-ness, of me and not me. …

Living as Vulnerability

In the moments before awakening this morning, I heard a deep voice speak. The words, “Saffy will begin her spiral and leave soon.” Was it just my mind speaking its attachment to the beautiful, furry black compassion and companionship she so embodies? Or, was it the voice of prophecy? Was the day nearing when I …

Home Tree

“Mother, I am filled with your emptiness. You, oh fertile womb of all creation, Madonna, immaculate receptacle, have emptied this vessel. You have prepared this I am to receive the perfection of the Master’s sword. I, no longer am I. I am a waterfall of energy pouring into the world. I am the Eternal Genesis.” …

Immersion in God

How many ways are there to prevent absolute, ultimate immersion into God? Oh my God—evidently there are infinite, immeasurable, unfathomable ways. Sometimes I really wish these human forms came with an owner’s manual, realizing, of course, that the Owner is God. My most recent discovery—death is a deceitful distraction. It makes you believe in it …

Reflection of Inner Resonance

Life is the reflection of our inner resonance, although it’s doesn’t work the way the mind would guess. Your resonance creates your world, but only to a small degree. More accurate, our resonance creates the vibratory field that is our world. It’s collective, communal, interdependent—a network of resonance that does not simply include, but is …

What is Home if it is not Here?

What happened today? I knew that I was struggling with physical manifestations, deep in the experience of the lack of control I had over my own body. The digestive re-patterning, as my friend Paula called it, a severe understatement. The re-occurrence of the little sores I have battled since the late years of Ken’s illness …

The Womb of Cooperation

“Then will they know the vision I saw when I said, Many shall seek to enter in and shall not, for straight is the gate and narrow is the way that leads to eternal life. For, without the true appreciation of the Christ Ideal and of the divine and perfect plan of the cooperation of …

Waking Up

Phil: “What if there is no tomorrow? There wasn’t today.” If you haven’t watched the movie Groundhog Day in a while, do. So many lines will simply roll you over in laughter and leave you breathless on the floor. What year did the movie come out? 1993. Who was I then? I saw it. I …

What is Heaven?

Lately everything seems unreal. I keep waiting for it all to fall apart into tiny pixels of color and light, myself included. Earth feels unreal; Heaven, or what I conceive as God (the dissolution of self) seems closer, ever closer. I still exist; I haven’t dissolved. Ready. Willing. Still here. And yet, the detachment from …

I am the Earth

I Am the Earth, the crunch of leaves, Fall’s fragrance of life composting, combusting itself into new life. I am the sperm, the egg, the nest of creation, through which God makes his Presence known, his will made manifest. As I give myself away, withholding nothing at all, I Am all This and the Heavens …

Rainbow Waterfall

It’s the craziest thing you could possibly do. Share it with others and they will think you have lost your marbles, everyone of them. Yet, it is the most mind-blowing gift you can give yourself. You win and so does our world. For the past several months, I have been unconsciously playing a game with …

Feedback Loop for the Divine

Each of us is a fully formed body of light. There is no there to get to, nothing to ascend into. There is here, now. We are already This. Each of us is the Grand Intelligence feeding Itself back into The Whole, informing and expanding Itself, co-creating and morphing the collective experience. We are the …

Hey God! I Said A Playground

Life is. New challenges are around every corner. Two mornings ago I awoke healthy and feeling vividly alive. Within two hours life flip-flopped, leaving this perfect little body with a new version of vision. Two retinal tears opened up in a display of flashing light and a big, solidly dark fishhook shaped impression splintered leaving …

Celebrate the Suffering

There is an interesting story about a guru who sets up a little shop selling pick axes and shovels to all the seekers who are trying to get to the top of the mountain to find whatever it is they believe is there. (I wish I remembered where I heard this story, but I don’t.) …