Is This Real?

Harry: Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head? Dumbledore: Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real? Is experience real? It’s a real experience. That’s all we really know. What else is life but experience playing out, our …

Obstructionism

The word obstructionism popped into my awareness this morning. When that happens I know am going to write about it. The first thing that came after that word was what do I have to say about obstructionism? Nothing … and then writing began. I love how that works! You see obstructionism every day. It is …

What If Nothing Changes

What if nothing changes? What if the elusive prize you’ve chased most of your adult life doesn’t change anything? What if your life is still YOUR life, bumps and bruises included? What if your body doesn’t heal? What if you still live in a very small community of one? What if you find out you …

Out of Options

Any practice is the practice of the limited mind. Of course it is, the unlimited has no need of practice. Does that mean that all practice is egoic and should be stopped? No. If that were true nobody would ever move off the couch. Change is a’happening here on planet earth. It’s a given. It …

Being Someone

When the idea of being someone dies When all you were is a blur all you hoped for lived your life for a hot bubbling blister on the sidewalk of life When you see so clearly that seeing feeling being wipes out all reference points for what was When hopes of healing of escape worthiness …

Living the Paradox

Regardless of how deeply the recognition of consciousness has set it roots into the no-thing-ness that is currently appearing in form as you, me and the world, the fact remains that we are here now and embodied.  Today, many talk about reality, about non-duality, about no one, no world. It’s particularly popular. Heck, I do …

Is Thought the Problem?

What if thought isn’t the problem? What if thought doesn’t create good or bad? We’ve been conditioned to believe that thought creates our experience of the world and to carefully watch what we think. What a heavy load to carry — a cross of immense proportions. What if it doesn’t? What if the thoughts aren’t …

Broken

I am broken. Profoundly broken. Humpty Dumpty broken. Having seen through the veils of separation, rather than a life of bliss, I find my inherent brokenness — that which I ran from, that which pushed me into self sacrifice and sucked out all that I was — still here, the same but different. I taste …

I Exist

I am. That is undeniable and yet it felt in the beginning like I am not. The I that is not, that seemed to have disappeared, is what many call an ego. It is not gone, non-existent, rather is it filling its intended role instead of wreaking havoc, creating veils, pushing itself to fix, change …

I’m Sorry

Love means never having to say you’re sorry.” Do you remember that quote? Does understanding the perfection of our experiences, that everything happens as it does and that we learn and grow from it as we can in the moment, mean that we forgo the shared connection, that we overlook the cry of pain? Even …

Priceless

Give it an inch and it takes a mile. Life is always asking for a deeper letting go. Its ‘asks’ keep getting more and more subtle. The difference between holding on and letting go, unequivocally letting go, is nearly indistinct. My body reacts, holds on when the many PVCs fire off. Since I’ve a bit …

Landslide

My friend Anrael wrote this of my last post, God and the Dark One: “There’s a shift pointed to in this writing that works it’s way through the entire system, including organs, bones, nervous system and brain functioning. A different implicit understanding of Isness inhabits the body system by system and cell by cell…gets lived …

God and the Dark One

Rand: I’m going to kill the Dark One. I’m not just going to seal up the Dark One, I’m going to end him. Moiraine: The dark one is beyond killing.Rand: I think I can do it …Moiraine: The Dark One is part of the Wheel.Rand: No. The Dark One is outside the Pattern, not part of …

Magical Thinking (revisited)

… so many edits I rewrote the darn thing. Magical thinking is often based in truth so it feels right, seems real. Something within us just knows it is true. And yet, living the reality it points to requires radical embodiment that nearly always lags behind the initial awakening. Magical thinking is fun. It often …

Do you mind what happens?

It is such a paradox, a bloomin’ conundrum, a question for the ages: If I don’t actually exist, why does it feel like I have choice, like I make decisions? Either the mystics are wrong and you do exist, or there’s more to this than meets the eye. This question plagued my existence for years. …