Boy, if that happened to me, I’d … I remember saying that. If I was diagnosed with cancer, I wouldn’t go through all that. I’d rather die. I said that after my husband died, after watching him fight the good fight for five years. According to medical science he was a survivor. He’d made it …
Category Archives: now
Begging Your Forgiveness
Dear Sweet Little Body, I am so sorry. I haven’t been a good friend. In fact, I’ve been a stubborn bitch who wants you to be something you aren’t, who ignored you when you didn’t comply, and unfriended you along the way. If I had a friend like me, well, it wouldn’t be pretty when …
Death Throes
Death is the material world’s boogey man and aging signals its approach. It’s not taken too seriously when you are your twenties unless you have illness struggles, but once you cross the threshold of the thirties the fear begins amping up. This is the sales pitch of cosmetics, plastic surgery, and most everything on the …
Does Love Always Win?
It’s a common phrase amongst spiritual folk – Love always wins. Does it? It doesn’t seem like love always wins. It doesn’t even feel like love always wins. So … is it true? Does love win in the long run? If yes, how long a run? In my lifetime? In the lifetime of my children …
Time Machine
To be present means more than I used to understand. I used to say, ‘I’m here, I live in the now’, but I had scarcely scratched the surface of what that meant. I had taken the first step, a step that graciously left time and space, me and others wholly intact. And boy, did I …
It’s Both
Life is a wondrous adventure, a daring escapade, the preciousness of a seemingly separate being, struggling for connectedness amid the vacillating yet compelling uncertainty of letting go in full surrender to our interdependency, our inherent and abundant symbioses. The separate self screams its denial, its holy terror, clutched in outrage, spewing out its abject rejection …
As Within; So Without
As Within; So Without Happiness is where we start. It’s at the heart of us. It is what we are before we layer on all the trappings of hope for an acceptable outcome, expectation that the outcome won’t be acceptable, and resistance to what has come before, to what is, and what will be. Resistance …
As You Are
To be fully you, do you need self-acceptance? Seems logical, doesn’t it? After all, how could you be fully you while wanting to be someone or something else: taller, shorter, thinner, more muscular or richer, smarter, loved by the right one or any of the other things we humans want? That’s how the story goes …
You!
Underneath belief lies fear: every belief, beliefs in religion, beliefs in science, beliefs in humans. Beliefs — this is true — hide fear. Every. Single. One. It’s the reason humans go to war. They are at war within themselves. The inner sense of absolute power, genius and presence is at war with the outer sense …
The Face of God
When I see you, it is the face of God I perceive. Touching you, it is the body of God I feel. In truth there is no me, no you, there is only God appearing as all things, all experiences, appearances arising and falling in Godmind. All perceptions hold within them this mystery, not a …
The Stuffing Inside
It doesn’t sound so easy to stop and ‘be you’ when all you want is a different you, a different experience than the one that has you in its crosshairs. Honestly, and said without even the tiniest bit of judgment, it may not be possible to quit running, to stop listening to the chatter inside …
Can You?
Can you simply be here, now? Can you flow with whatever appears? The ability to be with whatever appears, regardless of what the whatever is, without need want or desire to run or hide is a pretty simple description of behavior after awakening. That ability is natural to one who has seen through the game, …
Play Ball … or not
It’s common to see awareness and the witness as one and the same. The witness is subjective and cannot be awareness, cannot be consciousness which is beyond subject or object. Even though witnessing is not the holy grail, it is still an important step out of identification, a movement beyond the normal way most human’s …
Living It
“The mystery of life isn’t a problem to solve, but a reality to experience, a process that cannot be understood by stopping it. We must move with the flow of the process. We must join it. We must float with it.” Dune 2021 Do you feel the need to understand the Universe and your part …
The Ledge
If I could share how to be happy in the most simple terms what words would I use? Happiness, that’s really what we all want regardless of the forms we think it takes. The drive is always the search for happiness, not gleeful off the charts, unnatural happiness but gentle peaceful contentment and joy. The …
Amaya Gayle 