The Essential Conversation

The Essential Conversation A: If This is all there IS, that means my will has never existed, that Its will has always been in charge. Y:  Does that mean I am a puppet of This, will-less and flopping in the breeze on the stage of life? A: No. It’s worse than that … and better …

The Gate

What is the sound of a tree falling without the ear to hear it, or at least a mechanical ear, a sound recorder? What is the sparkle of starlight without an eye to perceive it? Does one exist without the other? They are intimately woven together. The idea of one without the other is a …

Landslide

My friend Anrael wrote this of my last post, God and the Dark One: “There’s a shift pointed to in this writing that works it’s way through the entire system, including organs, bones, nervous system and brain functioning. A different implicit understanding of Isness inhabits the body system by system and cell by cell…gets lived …

Happiness

Are you happy? It’s an important question because at your core you are happiness itself. Do the beliefs you hold bring you happiness or do they cause your beautiful self to contract a bit? Do your ideas about life cradle your wide open heart, that which is more natural to you than breathing, or do …

Powerful or Powerless?

We don’t easily accept the reality of no free will. I’ve always known it was true although I didn’t quite understand how it could be. Observing my life, it sure looked like I had it, at the very least on occasion, but something within kept saying no even to that compromise. The idea of no …

The Ultimate It Factor

What you call life is Consciousness. Everything, every experience arises from, arises in and dissolves back into Consciousness. It is the Ultimate It Factor of Life. If you sit and meditate and have cosmic experiences they arise in and return to Consciousness. As a seeker, if you practice any of the seemingly infinite possibilities: sadhanas, …

Hiding in Plain Sight

I love movies, especially sci-fi, although lately I’ve been enjoying a wide variety of films. Subtitled films are some of the best. They keep me so wrapped up in the words and visuals I easily space that I am watching a movie. I am instantly transported to Korea during the Joseon Dynasty, or I find …

Expectation

Expectation is powerful. It is beyond anything I had realized and I had discovered most of its secrets. From this locus of experiencing, it is awe-fully awful-ly important, one of the deeply misunderstood enigmas of Life. Expectation is sneaky. Even when I get that the separate self is a lie, that it has never truly …

The Bodhi Tree

Last night I was graced with crystal clear seeing of the twisted lie that is the separate self. It, as usual, came on the heels of hell night.   Yesterday started with a big bang – a body shock that set my world reeling. It was not the device implanted in my chest. It was …

Row, Row, Row Your Boat

Row, row, row your boat,gently down the stream,merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,life is but a dream. The children’s song was attributed to Eliphalet Oram Lyte long, long ago, back in 1881. Do you suppose he actually knew the truth of that which he wrote? How many times did I hear that song, did I sing that …

Enlightenment

Who is it but the errant one, the believer of lies who desires to see through the lies?  Who is it but the manufactured house of separation, the abode of misinformation who desires freedom from the separation? Who is it but the dream character dreaming the maze, mesmerized by the labyrinth and sleep walking through …

Of Sound Mind

“Being of sound mind there is nothing left to do. Life is what it is; I am what I am, so I revel in the now.” Looking for a cause in the causeless! Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive – to deceive myself that is! What a hoot! …

Free Will

It’s been a fascinating last 16 months. Each health set back has taken me deeper and deeper into surrender. The last three months have been amazingly intense and nearly beyond words, but you know me, I’ll still make a valiant attempt What have I learned? Surrender is nothing I do; an ‘I’ can’t do it. …

YES

“I did not come to teach you. I came to love you.” I saw this on a meme today and it stopped me in my tracks. What if instead of lesson after lesson, so many hard earned and painful, This That Is is simply loving us and it is only our resistance to love that …

In The World, Not Of It

To be in the world but not of it. My kingdom is not of this world. What are these actually saying to us? These words have been playing in my awareness for the last week or a bit longer and last night as I thought about the election it dawned on me that perhaps this …