Namaste

I raised my two hands in front of my heart in Namaste, just like I have hundreds of times before. The impression of my fingers snugged up together—prayer hands—altered something within me, something that only moments before had been constrained by ordinary awareness wrapped in concepts of duality, of two-ness, of me and not me. …

Greatest Miracle of All

How do I begin to write about what happened today? The magic and mystery of my wooded walk took me deeper into its bosom. I walked with a friend. We were chatting, not having a particularly deep conversation, but aware and observant. As we walked over the small rise, I noticed the energy of a …

Home Tree

“Mother, I am filled with your emptiness. You, oh fertile womb of all creation, Madonna, immaculate receptacle, have emptied this vessel. You have prepared this I am to receive the perfection of the Master’s sword. I, no longer am I. I am a waterfall of energy pouring into the world. I am the Eternal Genesis.” …

Immersion in God

How many ways are there to prevent absolute, ultimate immersion into God? Oh my God—evidently there are infinite, immeasurable, unfathomable ways. Sometimes I really wish these human forms came with an owner’s manual, realizing, of course, that the Owner is God. My most recent discovery—death is a deceitful distraction. It makes you believe in it …

Reflection of Inner Resonance

Life is the reflection of our inner resonance, although it’s doesn’t work the way the mind would guess. Your resonance creates your world, but only to a small degree. More accurate, our resonance creates the vibratory field that is our world. It’s collective, communal, interdependent—a network of resonance that does not simply include, but is …

What is Home if it is not Here?

What happened today? I knew that I was struggling with physical manifestations, deep in the experience of the lack of control I had over my own body. The digestive re-patterning, as my friend Paula called it, a severe understatement. The re-occurrence of the little sores I have battled since the late years of Ken’s illness …

Conscious Lovers

What was the word …the word you used to describe your identity, that part of your identity that must be released, and is so sweetly unraveling? As I searched my memory, my Now while laying in bed, not drifting off to sleep … so many words came to me, neatly stacked bundles of cloth disguised …

Deliverance

“Knowing what something is, is not the same as feeling it.” The Giver What would make you willing to feel all the pain and suffering inside of you? What would make you insatiably hungry to feel all of your life? You close off. It is natural to protect yourself from pain. It is painful to …

In the Face of Love … Thank you Gandalf

“The world is indeed full of peril and in it there are many dark places. But still there is much that is fair. And though in all lands, love is now mingled with grief, it still grows, perhaps, the greater.” ― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings I loved “The Lord of the Rings” …

Exquisite Expansion

If you will read this with the spirit of exploration in which I wrote it, it offers one or perhaps even a lifetime of cosmic laughs. Suspend any disbelief for the moment and let yourself go. You can always pick yourself back up if you choose. One teacher says, “Give your heart to God”; another …

Raw Nerve, Part II

Up early again a drive ahead of rush hour needing to be first in line only a two-hour wait the doctor’s worried look a free-falling slide down the muddy hole of the medical system In only 2 days I was back the antibiotics prescribed not working, if anything my cheek getting bigger infection spreading further, …

Raw Nerve Part I

A little over ten years ago I had $300,000 in stock. I wasn’t one of the 1% but I was one of the financially blessed Today I have nothing, my fortune crumbled like the ruins of the Anasazi a few dollars stuffed in a safe I don’t even know how few anymore I have stopped …