God and the Dark One

Rand: I’m going to kill the Dark One. I’m not just going to seal up the Dark One, I’m going to end him. Moiraine: The dark one is beyond killing.Rand: I think I can do it …Moiraine: The Dark One is part of the Wheel.Rand: No. The Dark One is outside the Pattern, not part of …

The Meaning of Life

What are we here to learn? Or, are we here to learn anything? There seem to be as many different versions as there are people. Another way to word this is, “What is the meaning of life?” I’ve always gravitated towards to the big mysteries of life locked away just out of sight: free will …

Magical Thinking (revisited)

… so many edits I rewrote the darn thing. Magical thinking is often based in truth so it feels right, seems real. Something within us just knows it is true. And yet, living the reality it points to requires radical embodiment that nearly always lags behind the initial awakening. Magical thinking is fun. It often …

Source Code Genesis II

In October of 2013 I wrote a post called Source Code Genesis. (linked below) It represented a considerable breakthrough in my thinking at the time, helping me see how physical injuries are prolonged, solidified in the 3D. I discovered a process whereby I stepped back and back and back — one step at a time …

Do you mind what happens?

It is such a paradox, a bloomin’ conundrum, a question for the ages: If I don’t actually exist, why does it feel like I have choice, like I make decisions? Either the mystics are wrong and you do exist, or there’s more to this than meets the eye. This question plagued my existence for years. …

I Did Not Know

I didn’t know what I did not know. I know that’s a common phrase but it holds such uncommon truth. I spoke of truth. I acknowledged the Oneness, consciousness as All. The Universe moved through me, informed my awareness, speaking without the precursor of thoughts. Healing energy poured through me as it would, when it …

The Quest

(Update below) What impacts the types of thoughts that arise in what passes for personal awareness? I’ve been looking closely because I’ve noticed that lately — perhaps always but more so lately — those thoughts left unexamined, manifest rather quickly. Read that as instantly. I’m not talking about thoughts I drum up, thoughts I consciously …

You Can’t Know Me

To know me is to know yourself. There is no way to know me, to know anyone, if you do not know the nature of your self. Until that realization you can’t know me. I may speak and you will hear your own version of truth. I may write the most perfect words and you …

The Only Grail

Experiencing is absolutely real! Our experience as it is is the holy grail — the only grail. All else is not real in the way we have been programmed. Seeing a body, or a world-cosmos-universe, is only perception, the experiencing alone. It is non-dimensional infinite eternality, and wonders of wonders, rather that finite bags of …

Happiness

Are you happy? It’s an important question because at your core you are happiness itself. Do the beliefs you hold bring you happiness or do they cause your beautiful self to contract a bit? Do your ideas about life cradle your wide open heart, that which is more natural to you than breathing, or do …

Effort Always Fails

For years most on the spiritual path have patiently practiced according to their tradition. Practice automatically implies at least some level of effort. Effort is always directed at an object, towards something desired — peacefulness, happiness, oneness, experiences of shimmering light and love. Fascinating when you grasp that the intention of practice is to bring …

The Dance

I didn’t quite have the whole of it. Wouldn’t exactly say I was wrong, just that truth seems to be constantly expanding, or at least the understanding that is taking root here is. Isn’t that always the case with a blown open mind? How fun is that! When I wrote of the present moment I …

And then one day …

You’re going about life hooked on the adrenalin of living absolutely convinced of the separation reality and then … something happens. You didn’t cause it, you didn’t ask for it. God knows, you wouldn’t have asked to be taken apart piece by piece. At first, it doesn’t seem too bad, mild in comparison to what …

Playground of Experiencing

I write because I write. The urge arises and writing commences. There is no need or desire to convince, not even belief that there is something to say of importance. Rarely is there a sense of where the writing is headed, what message it will portray. The words are not accompanied by hope to change …

Powerful or Powerless?

We don’t easily accept the reality of no free will. I’ve always known it was true although I didn’t quite understand how it could be. Observing my life, it sure looked like I had it, at the very least on occasion, but something within kept saying no even to that compromise. The idea of no …