What are you seeking? Most everyone is looking for something: more material stuff, better health or improved looks, a way to get ahead (legally or not), happiness and peace (however you define it), revenge, the fountain of youth, a way to be okay, a way to escape the pains of life, a more humane world, …
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Masks of Pain: Unraveling Our Stories of Worth
The Phantom of the Opera is a favorite of mine. I identified, not with Christine, but with the Phantom, with the one who hid pain behind the mask. I didn’t want to see Christine choose a healthy love; I was silently hoping that she would choose the unlovable monster. I guess it isn’t a surprise …
Permission to Be, to Feel, to Acknowledge the Struggle
Walking this morning, I was noticing my body, paying attention to where it was tight and where it was … not loose, but effortless, almost non-existent in the physical sense. A prayer came to mind, and that was rather unusual, because prayer seems to have escaped me as I don’t know who I’d pray to. …
A Confluence of Spirituality and Humanity
There is an interesting confluence of spirituality and humanity occurring. I wondered what it would be. Now I see clearly. In the past I have referred to the intersection of divine and human as the center of the cross, the sweet spot where we are what is, where we pour love onto saint and sinner …
The Reality of Mortality
It doesn’t matter if you are black or white, red or blue, able to pay the bills, squeaking by or living in a tent, life on planet earth will eventually break you. The only difference is how long it takes before you truly grok the fact that no one gets out of here alive and …
Healing from Trauma: Finding Peace in Your Body
The body is the last to get it, the last to let go of its stored trauma. If the last ten traumatic, nervous system deregulating years were all that we needed to heal that would be bad enough, but they aren’t the sum of this fight or flight, sleepless, intense out of sync-ness. Life has …
Overcoming Self-Doubt: A Journey to Enoughness
I thought it was me. All those years I thought it was me, that I wasn’t—smart enough, pretty enough, clever enough, good enough—you know, loveable. Something didn’t add up, but I didn’t know what it was, so the only answer left to me was to try harder. I carefully picked out clothes and counted every …
Disbelieving Appearances: A Path to Aliveness
It’s a conundrum. I have no idea what is of the greatest value. I find it important to share what is happening in our world, and yet I can’t help but think that the sharing is redundant, that you already know about the world’s depravity, its deep dive into cruelty, its lack of a heart-based …
Demolishing the Illusion of Safety
The greatest gift these times are giving us is the demolition of the illusion of safety. On the surface it sounds like a good idea, to feel safe. Everyone says safety is critical to our ability to be honest with ourselves and others, but when we are cushioned within the illusion of safety, what are …
Flip Flop, Flip Flop, Flip
I’ve been watching how this body-mind is organically moved into action, the way emotions trickle or flood in and movement occurs. These inputs, sensations, threads of thought, are not consciously chosen. They simply appear. The sensations and thoughts create the many flavors of life, the delicious bits I savor, the inedible mouthfuls I attempt to …
Boom! What Aren’t You Appreciating?
After a morning without power, I’m snugged up in my cushy chair watching the snow fall … and accumulate. It is putting it down right now. Wow. I awoke this morning to the sound of a transformer blowing – bang. No that’s too high, this one boomed, snapped and grumbled. Not a sound you expect …
Life Doesn’t Have to Hurt So Bad
There is only one insight worth the trouble, but that is the one that finds you, not one you can find. Anything short of that realization will ultimately be unsatisfying regardless of how awesome it feels in the moment of recognition. All but one insight dims. Most make room for the next, opening up the …
Infinite Aliveness: Unraveling the Mysteries of Existence
It’s a dream. You’ve heard it said before, whether you believe it or not, is another story. You’ve read about lucid dreaming, perhaps even experienced it. To be lucid within a dream means you are aware you are dreaming while you are dreaming. While lucid you can push the threads that knit the dream together, …
Walking Away: Leaving the Guru Behind
Many years ago, when I knew I needed to walk away from a teacher, I struggled. To leave would mean leaving my community behind and that broke my heart. My inner knowing was strong and persistent as hell, so I knew I couldn’t stay. I didn’t truly know why I had to leave; I just …
Awakening to the Dream: Embracing Enlightenment Beyond Definitions
What do you want? Don’t answer too quickly. Take a moment and let the question settle in. Whatever you want is what you want and it’s not wrong, whatever it is. Many of the people who read spiritual stuff believe the answer to that question is enlightenment, waking up from the dream, seeing through the …
Amaya Gayle 