What is Home if it is not Here?

What happened today? I knew that I was struggling with physical manifestations, deep in the experience of the lack of control I had over my own body. The digestive re-patterning, as my friend Paula called it, a severe understatement. The re-occurrence of the little sores I have battled since the late years of Ken’s illness …

Deliverance

“Knowing what something is, is not the same as feeling it.” The Giver What would make you willing to feel all the pain and suffering inside of you? What would make you insatiably hungry to feel all of your life? You close off. It is natural to protect yourself from pain. It is painful to …

Hey God! I Said A Playground

Life is. New challenges are around every corner. Two mornings ago I awoke healthy and feeling vividly alive. Within two hours life flip-flopped, leaving this perfect little body with a new version of vision. Two retinal tears opened up in a display of flashing light and a big, solidly dark fishhook shaped impression splintered leaving …

Are you tired of seeking?

Behind the pretense, not too deeply hidden, this moment is filled with unbearable grief, a choking sadness that steels the breath, the burdensome weight of unending judgment and an angst we can’t quite put our finger on, like heaving skies pregnant with unsettled energy set to explode in thunderous lightning without notice. As spiritual disciples, …

In the Face of Love … Thank you Gandalf

“The world is indeed full of peril and in it there are many dark places. But still there is much that is fair. And though in all lands, love is now mingled with grief, it still grows, perhaps, the greater.” ― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings I loved “The Lord of the Rings” …

Not at the Expense of Another

It is unusual when I write two posts in two days. This one begged me to write it. I saw a facebook post in support of the current minimum wage, not for economic reasons as often purported by politicians, but because of the minimum wage earners lack of skills, education, motivation and contribution. It seems …

Raw Nerve Part I

A little over ten years ago I had $300,000 in stock. I wasn’t one of the 1% but I was one of the financially blessed Today I have nothing, my fortune crumbled like the ruins of the Anasazi a few dollars stuffed in a safe I don’t even know how few anymore I have stopped …