It’s all just one big circus tent. Inside the tent is anything you want to experience, whether that want is conscious or not. We are born in the tent and die there. Nothing happens outside of the Big Tent. All experiences are worthy of you, even if others think your life is a waste of …
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Understanding Your Inner ‘Shoulds’
I’ve been looking at ‘shoulds’ today. A lot of folks believe they don’t have any ‘shoulds’ left. If so, I bow humbly to your magnificence. And I’d ask you, is that really true? How much of what is taken for granted is actually a ‘should’? Here is a short list off the top of my …
It Is Time
I am reminded of a vision I was given many years ago. “I saw a woman with a long white braid walking toward a polluted river. Eyes brimming with tears, she bent down on one knee to embrace the earth. I could feel love emanating from her. She leaned over and one single tear fell …
Permission to Be, to Feel, to Acknowledge the Struggle
Walking this morning, I was noticing my body, paying attention to where it was tight and where it was … not loose, but effortless, almost non-existent in the physical sense. A prayer came to mind, and that was rather unusual, because prayer seems to have escaped me as I don’t know who I’d pray to. …
Surfing the Seamless Sameness …
When you realize ‘why’ is irrelevant, that even if it wasn’t, there really is no true answer, that anything you come up with is merely your current best understanding, a thought, a belief that is bound for change … When you’ve seen that ‘how’ will reveal itself in its own good timing, that it isn’t …
The Open Door Inviting Trauma and Pain into Our Lives
I started out puzzling over racism this morning and wondering why it’s a thing, other than the societal programming that’s been around for ages. My granddad was racist, blatantly so. I had heard the ‘N’ word many times in his home. It angered me while breaking my heart for the obvious hypocrisy. Go to church …
The Storyless Story
I am human and even that label is more than suspect. Any label you attach to me is in error. Labels merely point to how you perceive that I am showing up in the moment, how you want me to show up, or how you believe I showed up in what you deem our past. …
The Sacred Thirds: Grief, Numbness, Distraction
After Kenny died, my day was split into three compartments: grieving, numbing out, and distraction. The grief was intense. Had I allowed it free rein, I likely wouldn’t be here today. I needed to absorb and integrate, to feel into nothing at all, to clear out of the painful shards without actually doing anything. I …
An Unstoried Life
There is a deep responsibility for life that lives within each of us. As we move along the spiritual path we learn to surrender, to let life be as it is, for it is as it is whether we let it be or not. Eventually when the surrender is complete, a new understanding dawns: this …
The Reality of Mortality
It doesn’t matter if you are black or white, red or blue, able to pay the bills, squeaking by or living in a tent, life on planet earth will eventually break you. The only difference is how long it takes before you truly grok the fact that no one gets out of here alive and …
Holy and Broken Love
I’ve been listening to performances of Cohen’s ‘Hallelujah’. Listening and singing along, paying attention to the verses that vary from version to version. Today they struck a different tone for me and got me thinking, wondering, feeling into the depths of love, and how we say we love, but realizing that most of the time …
Tears for a Warped World
It’s a warped world we are living in right now. This afternoon I started crying and couldn’t stop. Sophia is still sitting at my feet, snuggling, soothing. Nothing set me off. There was no particular reason. I’m blessed. I have seen through the ruse. I am in on the cosmic joke. I am aware of …
I Shall Not Look Away, but I Will Remember
I Shall Not Look Away, but I Will Remember Few want to be poor, but that seems to be the direction life is taking the 99% of us. Some don’t see it barreling this way, believing they have enough for their own safety. They don’t realize that the US coffers are being systematically drained, that …
Healing from Trauma: Finding Peace in Your Body
The body is the last to get it, the last to let go of its stored trauma. If the last ten traumatic, nervous system deregulating years were all that we needed to heal that would be bad enough, but they aren’t the sum of this fight or flight, sleepless, intense out of sync-ness. Life has …
It Has Come to Pass
The world has split apart. I saw it coming in a vision years ago, the bridge that was being stretched like a chunk of taffy until it snapped in two. It was clear to me then that some of us would be able to cross back and forth while others would have access to one …
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