I started out puzzling over racism this morning and wondering why it’s a thing, other than the societal programming that’s been around for ages. My granddad was racist, blatantly so. I had heard the ‘N’ word many times in his home. It angered me while breaking my heart for the obvious hypocrisy. Go to church …
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Tears for a Warped World
It’s a warped world we are living in right now. This afternoon I started crying and couldn’t stop. Sophia is still sitting at my feet, snuggling, soothing. Nothing set me off. There was no particular reason. I’m blessed. I have seen through the ruse. I am in on the cosmic joke. I am aware of …
Healing from Trauma: Finding Peace in Your Body
The body is the last to get it, the last to let go of its stored trauma. If the last ten traumatic, nervous system deregulating years were all that we needed to heal that would be bad enough, but they aren’t the sum of this fight or flight, sleepless, intense out of sync-ness. Life has …
It Has Come to Pass
The world has split apart. I saw it coming in a vision years ago, the bridge that was being stretched like a chunk of taffy until it snapped in two. It was clear to me then that some of us would be able to cross back and forth while others would have access to one …
Overcoming Self-Doubt: A Journey to Enoughness
I thought it was me. All those years I thought it was me, that I wasn’t—smart enough, pretty enough, clever enough, good enough—you know, loveable. Something didn’t add up, but I didn’t know what it was, so the only answer left to me was to try harder. I carefully picked out clothes and counted every …
Wonderful Ugly Habitual Creative Blame
Blame. Seems it’s a human trait. Habitual, for sure. Perhaps to be human is to blame, or at least to be caught up in separation, is to blame. I’ve been blamed and I’ve blamed. It’s like a hot potato we throw around, never truly catching it, mostly tossing it right back as soon as the …
Amaya Gayle 