It’s been a fascinating last 16 months. Each health set back has taken me deeper and deeper into surrender. The last three months have been amazingly intense and nearly beyond words, but you know me, I’ll still make a valiant attempt What have I learned? Surrender is nothing I do; an ‘I’ can’t do it. …
Category Archives: Conscious Love
No Escaping This!
Years ago a teacher said that many would not make the shift. That sounded too much like Christian rapture theology to me so I closed my ears. Surely no one would be left behind. How could a loving God leave any of Itself behind? Wouldn’t that be impossible? Years later I was given the vision …
YES
“I did not come to teach you. I came to love you.” I saw this on a meme today and it stopped me in my tracks. What if instead of lesson after lesson, so many hard earned and painful, This That Is is simply loving us and it is only our resistance to love that …
Life Lessons
Over the past months I have learned these lessons the hard way, or what I’d term hard if I didn’t know there is no hard or easy, rather just the way life is expressing itself now. Life has a way of fine-tuning us, of not allowing old patterns any space to thrive. Eventually all that …
In The World, Not Of It
To be in the world but not of it. My kingdom is not of this world. What are these actually saying to us? These words have been playing in my awareness for the last week or a bit longer and last night as I thought about the election it dawned on me that perhaps this …
A Vision of Possibility
Years back I was given a vision. I saw a bridge stretching, like a piece of taffy being pulled apart. The center of the bridge stretched until it became very thin and eventually snapped. Two worlds were created from the schism, not unlike the world we inhabit now with its political polarities. The vision foretold …
Silent Stillness
I’ve been experiencing my last breath for the past 15 months — a physical actuality because of an apparent heart issue that has the immediate potential of ending my life. Each month has brought a deeper experience as less and less control over my health arose. It was only last night as I was experiencing …
The Lie
The cosmic video game, the one that holds my life and my impressions of this world, including all the others I am aware of, is glitching. These days I often notice its unreality. It blinks in and out, feels like it is falling into a gazillion pieces, like the dome in the Jim Carrey movie, …
Raw, Pure Potential
These last six days sitting in a hospital bed awaiting surgery have been an interesting study in opening to possibility and raw potential. Thanks to my heart (I love that it is my heart) I see potential a bit differently, or perhaps more clearly than ever before. Life is raw, pure potential unfolding moment by …
It’s All Mind
Life is such a wondrous experiment. Back in 2006, when I titled my first book I didn’t realize just how profound that moniker was. Life is definitely The Grand Experiment, an Expedition of Self Discovery. The longer I live the greater opportunity I am given to delve the truths, to experience the sensations that ripple …
Out of Control
When one can see no future, all one can do is the next right thing. Frozen 2 I find this quote fascinating. On the physical level, when standing in the dark with no path in sight, what is left is to take the step, the leap of faith that feels accurate, either that, or crumple …
The Gift of My Heart
These times are filled with anxiety. Many seem to be waiting for the next shoe to drop, and while waiting for something, it usually appears. People are depressed and some are so taxed they are exiting this realm in response. If you want to learn to navigate these ever more challenging days, I am offering …
Awakening
I love Jim Carrey. I think my favorite movie, and this is a hard choice, is The Truman Show. It could be that I just finished watching it again but it feels like it is more than that. When I look at the movie as an analogy for my life here on playground Earth it …
The Great Reboot
If you are fortunate to not be packed up and ready to evacuate you probably haven’t had to decide what you would take and what you would leave behind. I’ve wandered around the house today wondering what I would leave to the fates, what dear treasures I would tuck into my bag as I walked …
You are the Portal
Jackson County is on alert to evacuate. Medford is a town of 82,000 and there are lots of smaller surrounding towns as well. My heart goes out to all my friends and family in the path of the Glendover fire. It is the same not too far from home. Clackamas County is on alert — …
Amaya Gayle 